Thursday, January 27, 2011

WTF Uhgain

Kids, here's a tip. If you're angry, don't listen to Eminem.

Any song by Mr Marshall Bruce Mathers is a surefire way to further stoke your anger. Heck, if you're just a little bit annoyed, I guarantee you, listening to Sing for the Moment can simmer your annoyance to full-blown RAAAAAAAAGE. Seriously. Rage that that Leonidas fler has nothing on.

Alamak. Kiut nye abang gagah. Tak jadi marah. Hamjadah betul.

Okay, here's the thing (btw, ni still mode marah). Please lah, bagi salam boleh tak? Please lah, jangan ASSUME boleh tak? (Ada lah bijak laksana bulans yang mengatakan, 'to assume is to make an ass of u and me', geddit? Actually, to me statement to cliche but it gets the point across). And most importantly, don't judge.

Let's say you have a friend, XYZ, who always wear a blue shirt to work. 5 days a week, 5 different shades of blue. Sometimes he'll throw in an odd white or cream coloured shirt in the combo lah, but most of the time, he's blue da ba dee da be da.

Now the thing is, a decent human being could not have been bothered at all. But okay, let's face it, if you're a normal human being, and if you're in a group of other normal human beings, chances are, you're gonna be all kaypohchi about why XYZ is only wearing blue.

Eh, suka hati dia lah dia nak pakai baju biru je memanjang. Mungkin biru tu warna kegemaran dia. Mungkin baju-baju yang dia dok rotate pakai tu je baju-baju yang dia mampu beli sebab mak dia kat kampung sakit and adik-adik dia nak sekolah. Mungkin ex-girlfriend dia yang dah arwah suka sangat-sangat dia pakai baju biru dan dia sekarang in denial tak bleh terima gofren dah mati sebab tu dia keep on jugak pakai baju tu.

Dah alang-alang kau buat assumptions tu, buat assumptions gila babas terbabow.

But, for the love of God, please don't share them with me.

Thursday, January 20, 2011


Menulis itu satu katarsis sepatutnya. Tapi kadang-kadang aku ni perverted. Aku menulis daripada aku tengah marah sampai tak marah dan cool down, tapi lepas tu, aku sambung lagi tulis sampai aku marah balik. Katarsis kepala lutut dia lah.

Sebenarnya aku tengah marah sekarang ni. Tapi ni pada tahap aku tengah cool lah. Tengah tak berapa nak marah. Tengah dalam zone menerima segalanya sebagai kifarah dan dugaan hidup. Tapi aku tahu kalau aku terus menulis aku akan jadi marah balik.

TAPI, kalau aku tak tulis apa-apa, aku rasa macam rugi. Sebab, you see, this anger and rage somehow is the fuel of most of my writings. Selalunya rasa-rasa yang negatif ini membuatkan jari jemari aku laju meluncur pada keyboard meluahkan dan meng'rage' apa-apa yang tak kena dengan hidup aku pada waktu terdekat tu.

Okay, so that's very juvenile of me, I know. Rage tak tentu hala. Bajet macam rebel abis maki-maki through blog, padahal passive aggressive. Tapi itulah aku.

Entahlah. Sekarang ni, aku rasa, tak pe lah, tak payah lah tulis dulu ek. Nanti-nanti bila rage ni dah properly simmer to a boiling pit of lava, mungkin nanti aku akan RAAAAAAAGE!!!

Pic courtesy of Warner Bros.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Happy Born Day? WTF?

I dunno where people got the idea that wishing somebody "Happy BORN day" on people's birthday is okay. It is not okay. It is not okay because it is grammatically incorrect. It is not okay because the sentence is utterly hideous.

Okay, so I am a snob when it comes to English. I hate it when even I myself make stupid grammar mistakes, like putting an 'S' at the end of the verb when there shouldn't be any. You know, sometimes, magically, your fingers work faster than your brain. I kill myself over and over again when I read an entry I made and I saw spelling mistakes. Okay, more like, typos, because you know, the fingers sometimes do work faster than your brain. That's why it's not terribly surprising to findyours truly actually edit a 2-year-old blog entry just to correct one measly misspelling. Yes, it only takes one. The blog entry that no one but yours truly bothered to read in the first place. Yes, I go correct them from time to time. That is how anal I can get. That is how much of a snob I can be.

So anyways, back to this 'born' day business. I dunno if people think it's cute. I think they know it's incorrect, what I am not too sure of is why they keep on doing it anyways. It's probably direct translation from "Selamat Hari Lahir", but if that was the case then the wish should be "Happy Day Born" lah bongok, bukan Happy Born Day. Tak pun jadilah seignorant a certain International School in Brussels who had a sign wishing "Bahagia Tahun Baru" for the coming 2011. Bila ada orang tegur pun still the same sign stays up. Even Google Translate pun translate dengan betul. Susah sangat ke nak check dulu?

Kenapalah suka sangat wallow in ignorance? Kenapalah suka sangat buat benda2 yang engkau perasan cute tapi sebenarnya annoying dan grating? Kenapalah menyempitkan kepala otak aku dengan inanity seperti ini?


Wednesday, January 5, 2011

In a Relationship #001

I have a difficult relationship with my God. Of course He was NEVER difficult with me, I was the one who was unfaithful, is unfaithful, most of the time. I'd like to think that I have never strayed away from my beliefs in Him, but I think that's out of my hands. All I can do about that is to just pray and pray and pray and in my deepest of prayers and mournings of past sins, of the times I forget Him, He forgives me. He never forsake me.

I am not a deeply religious person. Not pious. Not even remotely. I am just a person going on with her life, who at some point, realize that I need more than love and support and guidance. I need the spiritual push, the kind that uplifts you in the darkest of sorrows. The kind that lights the light at the end of the tunnel.

Please, don't think of me as waxing lyrical over this. I am not trying to be philosophical or retrospective or analytical over this. I am just trying to say that, after all this time, after the feeling of invincibility, I need to fall back on him. And guess what? He always has my back. Always.

Please Allah, give me the strength and wisdom to accept what You have given me, good and bad.
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